The simpler life...

Days where i stare out in the distance, hoping it would be like it was before. sitting down there just gazing at all around me, content at how things were, wishing that moment can hold for eternity. raison d'etre

Quite some stuff happened recently but none particularly blog-worthy i guess. been staying back in sch for so long these days...

So there was blood donation drive on wednesday. and temasek seminar. damn that. missed the whole of the blood donation drive. was hoping could reach sch a li'l earlier and be in time to donate blood and see how everything's going. the announcement went well according to shiu hei and zhen hao. my script worked ^^. i could have made the announcement lor. the bus still wasn't here when assembly was under way. but couldn't hear it from the foyer. i was kinda looking forward to seeing the reactions of the pple below if i went up. and it had to rain on tuesday, going to the serious plan b over the intercom. but hope i didn't offend mickey heh.

temasek seminar was just plain boring. slept through teo chee hean's talk. and the other guest speaker's one as well. and after tea break where i saw tricia and lymon (lol. was like a mini e1 gathering there) slept yet again at the forum. there's always those enthusiastic pple who would ask questions... lunch, then tour of safti. kinda useless like the whole temasek seminar. fell down twice. bleh. once down the steps and another slipping on a drain. thankful candy, terence and hongyi was in the thing as well. at least didn't feel so bad knowing that there are pple with the same mindset and not some enthusiastic, alpha-type people there. i didn't ask, but i'm almost sure i can smell 2 aries in the group. the bazooka was really heavy. combat rations... didn't think it would be that bad until the soldiers in charge there tried to make it more disgusting than it is and succeeded. ugh. maybe i'd end up eating dog biscuits every day out in the field like our guide did. dog biscuits' nice ^^ hah.

quite funny listening to shiu hei and zhenhao's anecdotes bout the blood donation drive after that. and being their 'servant' after they both screwed up donating. gotta wait next year for my turn i guess. unless i go down to the blood bank one fine day just to have a try. bout 150 donated, 200 registered... hmm, guess it reached target. but i was hoping for more after seeing how the forms were taken up. maybe i just put expectations too high.

and dunno what's been happening the past few days. would reach home at bout 8+, 9. after dinner and shower would turn on pc. surf a li'l around the usual sites (blogs, a few webcomics and forums). then don't really feel like watching anime, playing games or other 'intense' activities. decided to lie on the bed for a while and plomp there i go to sleep. one of the day i slept right to the next day (didn't brush teeth. how dirty...), sometimes i'd wake up at 12/1/2 to switch off the pc and turn off the lights (oh, and brush teeth too)... so it means i've been sleeping at bout 9+, 10 the last few days. and despite the extra sleep i'm still dozing off during most lectures. i can never get enough sleep.

oh well, i'm not really making any point up til now. til next time then

Just thought i'd like to come in and note down some stuff. went bowling on friday. my debts finally all cleared and i'm back to my spending ways again. and at that my train of thoughts brings my to tuesday with morrie which i'm halfway through. even though it's inspirational some of the things morrie says but a lot of the philosophies seem too saint-like. revel in letting people wipe? i can't do that. much less see through 'the culture' and everything. oh, back to bowling. haven't bowled for two weeks or so, quite a long time considering how i decided to try improve it a few months ago. very happy with my performance. 8 out of 10 closed frame in one game. keeping my average of bout 130. not very good but promising. more pocket hits and i can request for a ball heh.

sat was, as usual, bout lazing around. lunch, a while at the pc and it's sleep for most of the day. love the feeling of being all drowsy but not sick. and some time devoted to moving my anime blog to a new server. i like my banner ^^ haha. Quite basic stuff but as again, one of the rare times i complete a photoshop 'project'

oh yeah, i clocked 13.09 during pe on friday. Finally a passing time! w00t! surprisingly the run felt pretty smooth and i only really felt the breathlessness stepping in on the last lap. new record! how pathetic... i remembered i clocked 13.30 during sec 2 or 3 but never improved. deproved even. felt kinda ashamed when i failed this year. my stamina has always been horrible but before then i'd managed to scrape through. whenever we had afternoon pe while those who passed played games there will be this feeling of 'i don't belong in this group' whenever we're doing static exercises. that is until we were made to run. hopefully can improve even more come tuesday's retest and maybe get a silver (i'm such a dreamer). i wonder why the sudden improvement. during june's remedial pe i remember clocking 12.30-13+ on the fifth lap and getting all disappointed, wondering how i'm gonna pass like that.

then today, went lib to rush through some tutorials. played the drum game after that. i'm improving ^^. starting to get hang of things liao. i like music games! hmm, i should start writing the proposals for the next morning announcement. still got more tutorials to rush next morning. wonder if i should go with my idea. poking fun at the principal who's right beside you during morning announcement? so it's masked, but... will let wei teng decide i guess

what a confusing day... started the day alrite, but slowly as i went to sch, rushed through some tutorials, etc, felt more and more tired. even frustrated. morning announcement next. had to make it again. quite scary... was feeling surprisingly calm when i first went up but as the national anthem dragged on and the first announcement came got quite nervous. and when i went up things just didn't go the way i wanted. perhaps cos of debating i like to move around a li'l bit, gesticulate a li'l when i speak to large groups of pple. but the mike there didn't allow that. could hear my own echo behind me during the announcement. think that made me go softer. and the telling-myself-to-talk-slower before it didn't really work. think it was a li'l soft and not really satisfied with what i did. but at least it's over... now to think of the idea next week with the mascot... grr, no inspiration at all...

two lectures next. somehow got increasingly frustrated as they went on. and it's not really cos of the announcements. more like those kind of untargeted irritation towards everyone and everything when suffering from those early morning blues. found solace in sleeping the day away... woke up twice by keith during chem lecture. sure, the first one was cos ms chua was coming and the next one cos there was sth to copy. i should be thankful for that but i just hate it when pple wake me up prematurely.

drowned two cups of coffee during break next to try get my spirits up. didn't work. so idled the most of the day away. physics talk by some professor from nus quite interesting and kinda perked things up a li'l.

treated the seniors pizza and a bday cake for bryan during first aid. things getting better. then was championing for 'world peace' throughout the whole thing. feel bad for both sides lor... hope things get a li'l better. don't think it's something we should blow the whole matter up. loads of slacking around after that. and once again the group is the last to leave the first aid room. went lib hoping to do some tutorials i've been lagging behind. but still so tired. and so bloated from the four pizza slices and three slices of cake. (was already kinda full when the 'hoping-to-get-rid-of-leftovers' from weishan and 'obligatory and also hoping-to-clear-leftovers' one from weiteng came. i guess i'm too cynical heh. pardon me, weishan and weiteng, if u somehow found this haha. frankly, i'm kinda surprised there weren't negative feedback bout the announcement.

oh, i've digressed. so did just two or three qn and started packing up. once again, we took 30min to an hour to get everyone to agree to go back. feeling much better but still so drained... was thinking of getting a double shot espresso at the lib but decided i'm taking too much caffeine. even arthur lim said out of nowhere some time back that drinking coffee regularly isn't good... time to cut down again...

Don't feel like elaborating, but then again there're things i wanna blog bout... note to self: don't let emotions get the better of your peace-loving self. no point destroying things just cos of a moment of impulse...

received a 5sms msg. new record... heh

wanna thank the group and my class for their reassurances today when i asked bout it. they seemed frank, and really mattered to me. and on hindsight, really appreciate what the class did when i came back.

it isn't that much of a chore... a week or so more and i'm done with the slogging... thinking bout choice of words, but oh well. i think about myself and whenever i have something negative to say i'd try to mask it by looking at things from another perspective, use less impactful words or try divert the attention away from it such that the negative thing is not the main point i'm making. i wonder if that makes me a hypocrite... but i truly wonder if this approach's the way to go or just going route one...

no point being the cause of unrest and discontent. time to watch my words in case i provide the spark for a fire to break out... let's give it one more go...

gosh, i'm not making any link from paragraph to paragraph. well, at least i've got the main points i wanted to make...

Getting real stressful nowadays. the recent exams don't even come close. saw loads of deadlines being pushed forward today. was in a rush the whole day, putting up posters, finding mr ng for stuff, doing some designing, etc. and morning announcement tml. the script's approved but i'm still trying to find a way to really appeal to people to step forward and donate. still not satisfied with my current script. seems so run of the mill and so typical of normal announcements that no one actually bothers about. word of mouth isn't going as well as i hoped. and i won't be around that day to drag pple to donate.

and listening compre seems so trivial as a result even though it's a national exam. had to report to the exam room at 2.15 then discovered that it'd only start at 3. initially felt so cooped up thinking of how i'd be wasting 45min idling away when there's still so much pressing. thankfully managed to calm down soon and fell asleep promptly. but guess tt was too much. awakened by the teacher every 5min reminding bout sth but went back to sleep each time. then it was finally 3 and the radio was saying it was about to start but i was screaming 'let me go back to sleep inside' hah. needed clement to give me a kick on the back before i sat up. did all the qns during the first reading of the passage (it was surprisingly easy =)) then lazed around not listening at all during the second time through. exams seem so unimportant nowadays. oral was a joke, and i was late by a few minutes or just on time for three quarters of my mid yr papers. wonder if that's good or bad

pw lecture after that. was rushing trying to get first aid stuff done again before it. so pressed for time. then during the first part of the lecture realised how much i've been slacking through pw and how far we're away from the finishing line. surveys and interviews still not finished. and i think i'd need to change a lot of the phrasing and organisation from the gpp to the wr which would take a lot of time. but the realisation didn't seem to be enough. still fell asleep during the lecture anyway and learnt nothing. oh well... let's hope i'd have done good enough for a band 2

ok, enough of that. went shopping for stuff for the publicity of the blood donation drive with kenneth at popular. then i went to woodlands library. eons since i've been there... dunno how the idea suddenly popped out in my head. was on the train, then thought of how next morning will be left doing first aid stuff and thus no time to rush finish the tutorials due. so decided to do some stuff there...

hmm, lots have changed there. basically the layout, etc is still the same but the tiny details here and there that makes the present cafe so much different from the one bout a year back... there added some sofas/cushioned seats, probably copied from jurong heh. the menu board behind the counter is new. so is the place where they put the pastry. new coffee grinder too... but other than that, it's the same. deep down i was hoping jeffrey is back there but i know that's fat hope. all the staff's unfamiliar except for the auntie cook who never comes out of the kitchen to socialise.

so was sitting down at my fave place (the one jeff always reserve for me =) heh) marvelling at the place which i used to spend so much time at. i think from after the mid years to around the prelims most of the days after school before dinner time were spent there. the latte wasn't as good as the ones back then but at least it is so much better than the bubbly stuff they serve at amk. oh, i'm digressing

so i took out my tutorials soon and proceeded to do them. and two qns into it, poof! my hand somehow jerked while placing the cup back on the table and there goes all the coffee onto the table. onto the paper, pens, etc. crap. surprisingly i was really calm after that. remember back in primary sch i spilled some soft drink at kfc and felt so scared approaching the counter to tell them that. the staff was friendly while clearing up the mess i created, which was good but there goes my tutorial. and lecture pad as well, which was drenched beyond hope. it was a new one grr... thankfully the more important stuff: my completed tutorials, lecture notes and the blood donation things were unscathed except for some coffee on the corners of the tutorials and notes. quite bad seeing the yellowish tinge on those papers but they smell nice lol.

i've always been a clumsy person but this was a first... so there were twice or thrice i spilled coffee on the counter but nothing wipes with a cloth couldn't take care of. and then there are the countless times i spilled a li'l on the tables when it is really full. again, nothing some serviettes couldn't handle. never toppled it full scale before. oh well. totally no mood to do anything after that. rejected the staff's offers of a refill and left.

and again one of those days where i go one big round recounting stories and forget what is the main point i was trying to make. remembered i was thinking on the lift back home what i was gonna blog bout, the title, the things that happened and my thoughts but guess i lost track of the last one. no point blogging more i guess

Today... just one of the days i want to coop myself up in my lonely li'l room and make no attempt to get out and get a life. i just wanna idle the day away, laze in front of the pc or on the bed and not let the world trouble me. just let me mind my own business and bemoan bout my own life wasting away i so dearly want the world to know. let's just leave everything tomorrow before i put an end to this.

but it's these days that everything seems to happen. kelvin and junliang called me out for ball, and as much as i hate turning down opportunities to meet up with friends i know i'm totally in no mood to go out. mom wants me to burn some cds for her and i've already told her i'd do it later for more than ten times already today. the proposals for all the announcements for blood donation are due tml and i know i can't afford to screw that up. i'd probably do that at midnight or sth. it's these reminders that i belong to the world, not the other way round that make me want to feel sorry for myself for being the person i am.

grr, i'm not expressing myself properly. reread the earlier part and it sounds so different from what i wana so. oh well, i'd just cut things short... so just lazed around the whole of today. woke up at 11+, had a simple brunch, spent a while on the com and napped. rinse and repeat... why are weekends always so short. and here comes monday again. and every minute means one closer to the blood donation drive. still have no idea how we're gonna get 200 people to donate.

listened to loads of music today. all hooked on lifehouse from the past week. then surfed around itunes for music previews/celebrity playlists, downloading the occasional song i like and marking some albums i wanna get when my accounts leaves the red. oh, here's the song that's playing if you're using ie (somehow i can't get it to work on firefox/opera) and have ur speakers turned out. great song...

Blind/LIfehouse
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I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go
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A mountain too high
A valley too wide
And within my heart a rift resides...

Blah. one moment inspiration hits and i managed to spew out three lines of stuff and there it leaves me... oh well. maybe i'd finish the poem or sth like that next time

i never think before i talk. and i never learn from past mistakes... felt so bad today when the name was announced... hope she don't take it to heart. still find it so astounding... can't seem to think of the reason why. guess this things happen.

on another note, guess the exco turned out kinda expected. except for sze ern kinda expected the others to make it. but surprised i got publicity heh. i ain't the most eloquent of speakers and not really chatty, etc or have a wacky sense of humour. but i'd try my best =). but it just gotta come at this time. blood donation drive right up ahead. loads of things to do. really hope it'd be a success. grr, why must there be temasek seminar then... was kinda looking forward to it. and donate blood for the first time. oh well. cautiously optimistic bout the future. hope it would turn out to be a fruitful experience at the end of jc life. maybe being in charge of publicity will help me improve social handling, something i'm pretty horrible at. getting to know more people will be nice too i guess.

i really dunno how to describe this... first aid was just a last resort sort of thing during cca orientation. after experiencing the mindless rush of jc life i know i can't take something heavy and just wanted to slack. but it turned out to be sth more really. i want to have create fond memories here. widen my social circle. form a tight-knit bond with the rest. somehow i see loads of potential in it. how wonderful things can turn out. here's hoping i can do my part to make at least part of it happen...

was feeling like doodling this morning. so here's what came out of it. on hindsight it looks like a piece of horrible art deserving of the 28 i got for art exam in sec 2, but i'm quite pleased with it lol. considering i almost never complete my doodles. and did it in bout 15min ^^.

like the grass heh. at least before it merges with the sky. and i thought i did the dog pretty well. yes, it's a dog. imagine! lol. was thinking i can never get the back view right but at least i can make something out of it... (was gonna type so can u and suddenly out of nowhere, i can hear 'soh can cook, so can u' ringing in my head... those fun times during home econs with yanda haha). was thinking the dog and the piece of wood would do better with some 3d-effects and fine lines here and there but the doodling mood kinda died off then and perfection is sth i kinda dread. wanted the dog's shade to be lighter too but oh well. and then the leash is just plainly done as a result. don't really like the aurora effect i created. was thinking more of a sunrise/sunset setting but settled on sth i know lol. didn't go well with the picture i guess. and the rainbow just feels horribly done and pasted on. i shouldn't haave added it i guess. but still i'm very pleased with my effort haha. til next

So this is what i'm feeling now
only going as far as my leash allows
Staring at the sky so beautiful
wanna be there beside you
smelling roses for all of eternity

But no, i'm being held back
and still not prepared to break free
After all it provides security
So 'til then i'd be here gazing dreamily
waiting for the world to turn black

Two sides to everything... Some people talk of alternate dimensions. And sometimes i wonder how i'd do in them. The millions of different possibilities you could have ended up in but did not because of your actions... So, yeah, i've been delving in what-ifs the past week or so (perhaps not so this few days... well, this was supposed to be an entry them), something i always hate myself doing. it doesn't help, does it? but it's still so tempting to wonder how things could have turned out. how you'd love to have to 'load game'. and then the logic part of me slips in. to put it chim-ly, i'm a secular humanist... things like alternate dimensions and many other things we believe in are just a way to comfort others. i'd probably be blespheming if i continue, so i'd stop there... never hurts to be a li'l more sensitive to how others might think. though there are always so many times i fail to do so. and i can't help but blame myself for that. and like so often i guess i'd just leave my life to the pure randomness of it all. fate, i call it, though others define it differently.

last night... went home at around 11+/12. was walking back. blasted the music on my fave playlist. looked up into the sky. the vast, endless skies. and i just felt like sitting down gazing at it until next morning screaming those songs at the top of my voice. if only my parents didn't mind that. and if only there wasn't the couple sitting on the bench at the playground (where i was planning to spend the whole night if i can) i would have stayed there for a while. the sky... i love how mysterious it is. sometimes i look up at it and see arrays of possibilities, like it's urging you to go forward. sometimes i can't help but feel so minute, so insignificant. other times like this i just want to gaze at it and not think bout much. i think it'd turned into a reflex action, looking at the sky when i'm full of feelings, whatever they may be, inside. times where i don't bother bout it for weeks, months, times where i see the sky more than my family and friends... so in the end i only managed to do the latter part of what i want to do, that is, just scream certain songs out. in the lift lol. i took it up to the twelth floor, back to first floor, up again and finally down to my floor just to finish the song heh. felt so great. and i wonder if it's the singing or what that made my eyes feel wet. not a tear yet, but that feeling... i love it but loathe it too. love-hate. bitter-sweet... i truly ponder

i can't help but agree totally with what eng wen said today about people no longer knowing how to read between the lines. it's one thing to be right up there with a person being able to observe his/her actions and tone but another to get someone's feelings with just words, be it during chatting, blogging or whatever. more and more recently i've been fascinated by this thing called the english language... sometimes i marvel while trying to explain some english stuff as the gp buddy and discovering that even though i don't really know why i use certain words/phrasing, it just comes intuitively and seem to really convey what i'm thinking. most of the time my abysmal vocab fails me, but otherwise i'm amazed at the different ways you can phrase the same thing, and they actually mean something slightly different. i've always believed a person's emotion exudes out unknowingly through the words he/she chooses and the way everything is put together anyway. can almost go onto a long, long story bout yet another one of my weird philosophies but today's just not the day hah.

ok, so back to what eng wen was saying... lol, felt nice being the only one in class who knows specifically what he meant, and it was exactly what i thought when i saw it. maybe i'm the one who cannot read between the lines and the perceived insensitivity is actually deliberate as a way to lighten up things, but i don't think so...

and it's these instances that make you feel more comfortable with a teacher bit by bit when you share the same sentiments on those li'l things in life. sometimes i don't agree with the things he say completely, but on such a subjective subject like gp it's impossible to find a good teacher with whom you can agree totally with. and there are certain things where i just like to go the unconventional way. it's like the impromptu speaking course which i attended last friday. sort of anyway.

k, so was planning to blog bout that but laziness and the seemingly boringness of it all put me off. but now that i'm on it, might as well... so friday i was down for chinese oral. and some temasek seminar workshop. then there is this dumb alpha list course which we had to attend either on friday or youth day. and it was like, duh, who would wanna go back to school during youth day for some useless course. so i signed up for it and had to be at 3 places at one time. i actually wasn't supposed to sign up for friday's session cos of oral so can't use that for excuse, so plan was to 'go toilet' and rush between the three.

so the course started first. was in lt5, and my thought process was it's an lt, so 'going to toilet' and being missing for 30min to an hour won't be too obvious as long as i present the impromtu speech early on. then thought it was a big mistake when i first went into the lt. it's not like an lt at all, with its semi-circular layout. it's so obvious to the person who's conducting, or whatever teacher's taking attendence that someone's absent for upwards of 30min a few times. and there is this teacher giving us (kenneth, zhen hao, me) attitude cos we were 5min late. like we want to attend this horrible thing. wonder why they put these teachers with loads of attitude in charge of alpha list. wendy koh and now whoever-she-is. can't they be like mrs chai (i think that's her name... hongyi said so...), always portraying an image of a 'ci-xiang' mother with her smile and demeanor. but oh well. slipped out of it 30min into the thing with attendance taken to go to oral.

i was the third or fourth person so thought i'd be over in a jiffy but forgot bout the stupid rules to quarantine people at one corner til 2.30 (it started at 1.40). and they only let us go at 2.50 at that. oral... it's a national examination but somehow it didn't feel anything like that. not unlike spa. surprised i was really calm before and during the thing. and we were given 5min to read the passage. then woei jin in front of me finished before the time's up. i didn't really feel like continuing to read the passage and just told mr chua i was ready and proceeded to take the oral lol. think i didn't do that badly. i hope.

so went back to the impromptu speaking course thinking i could use oral as an excuse for the temasek seminar. it was presentation time. after they had taught some skills and techniques to impromptu speaking. my turn came soon. i went up, said my topic and the person asked me what technique i was gonna use for my speech. and i didn't know anything cos i was 'going toilet'. so just crapped about how i feel more comfortable speaking out whatever's on my mind instead of using the techniques. impromptu speaking indeed. more so than the presentation where i continued crapping bout how i'd like to speak with an amoeba and how i'd rather learn another language than speak with animals. oh well. went toilet again after that to rush to temasek seminar. at the end of the day didn't know what was going on at both places but so glad i got over with it. i appreciate the efforts of whoever organised such stuff but shouldn't it be made optional so that only people who are really interested in it will join? and not by plainly forcing. utter waste of time.

oh yeah, i digressed. so it's how i prefer to do things by instinct most of the times. just do and say whatever comes up in my mind. i can never stick to plans anyway. now i'm lost at what i'm blogging all this bout. oh well, i guess i forgot.

quite a cheerful day for me today. well, except for pe which made me feel so weak again. pleasant surprises aplenty. i think i might even say felt like god lol. but awkward in a sense too having to deal with all the bringing up. the only times i can talk bout how i really feel is with old friends in hushed voices. but again as eng wen said, what are results really... i hope my values and take on life won't change just cos of this. lol, i think i sound like i'm worshipping him. i wonder if he somehow managed to find this somehow and is reading this heh. drop a note, eh, if you are.

lol, even made a promise just now to go vegan for a whole week (yup, not even eggs which i eat like more than one a day) if i complete the 'grand slam'. think not. and in a sense hoping not, and not cos i have to go without meat, eggs, milk and everything i love so much lol. i've been really lucky, and imo being too lucky isn't that good. been wanting to write an entry on counting my blessings but again have been putting things off. oh well. aaron's probably gonna complain i always 'break my promise' of playing guild wars, or playing so little. and today it's no longer 'just when i wanted to log in, someone chats with me' reason. but so tired anyway. argh, i'd just have to bear with more complains tml. to those still with me, have a nice day ^^

All those blog entries in my head but always don't seem to want to type them out when i'm actually in front of my dear ol' pc. oh well...

just watched be with you. nice! touching... though found it in the 'makes you believe in love' way and not in the 'sad and makes u wanna cry' way heh. thought it was gonna end at the part where mio goes away as a good, touching movie, but loved the last part when takumi read the diary. thought it made it a great, touching movie ^^. stayed back in the cinema after the show and did an observation on the people who cried lol...

findings:
6 teenage couples: didn't cry
1 elderly couple: both cried
2 teenage girls watching it together: both cried
1 lady watching it alone: cried
2 guys watching it together: didn't
1 teenage couple talking bout the show outside the cinema: the girl cried

hmm, seems to show a trend. but who cares heh. and symmetry in the groups that watched the movie lol. argh, i'm just thinking too much

fave part: the photo with the crush in the background. loved that when i first saw it in midori no hibi, one of my, if not the, favourite anime of all time. then all the coincidence were nice too and the more subtle stuff littered throughout the show... sunflowers, four-leaf clover, etc, etc... was planning to blog more bout it, but don't really feel like now... maybe next time

on a side note, my japanese's improving =). at least understanding common spoken phrases. still can't figure out much in anime, but think i catch bout a quarter or even more in the movie without looking at the subtitles. can even spot 2 errors in the subtitling lol. i just can't seem to put daisuki as 'i'm crazy for you' even in that context and midori's green, not some bird or something even though ~dori is often a bird... heheh. i'm still hoping to take japanese courses some day... wanna learn how to read written japanese. though i guess it's not much use now considering how li'l i'm gaming nowadays. and on taking courses there's still lip-reading i've always been interested in but haven't done anything about or even go find out where i can learn that.

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so just finished a book. the lovely bones. by alice sebold. great imo... the first chapter was revolting, talking bout a child rape and murder but liked the narration after that. from heaven... and all the things that happened. great book. check it out. again more watered down than i had planned, but oh well... i should really invent some sort of device which allows you to translate thoughts into blogs. always think of stuff while travelling but don't feel like anymore when i'm here. so that's it for now...