Sunday, July 17, 2005
Listless
Today... just one of the days i want to coop myself up in my lonely li'l room and make no attempt to get out and get a life. i just wanna idle the day away, laze in front of the pc or on the bed and not let the world trouble me. just let me mind my own business and bemoan bout my own life wasting away i so dearly want the world to know. let's just leave everything tomorrow before i put an end to this.
but it's these days that everything seems to happen. kelvin and junliang called me out for ball, and as much as i hate turning down opportunities to meet up with friends i know i'm totally in no mood to go out. mom wants me to burn some cds for her and i've already told her i'd do it later for more than ten times already today. the proposals for all the announcements for blood donation are due tml and i know i can't afford to screw that up. i'd probably do that at midnight or sth. it's these reminders that i belong to the world, not the other way round that make me want to feel sorry for myself for being the person i am.
grr, i'm not expressing myself properly. reread the earlier part and it sounds so different from what i wana so. oh well, i'd just cut things short... so just lazed around the whole of today. woke up at 11+, had a simple brunch, spent a while on the com and napped. rinse and repeat... why are weekends always so short. and here comes monday again. and every minute means one closer to the blood donation drive. still have no idea how we're gonna get 200 people to donate.
listened to loads of music today. all hooked on lifehouse from the past week. then surfed around itunes for music previews/celebrity playlists, downloading the occasional song i like and marking some albums i wanna get when my accounts leaves the red. oh, here's the song that's playing if you're using ie (somehow i can't get it to work on firefox/opera) and have ur speakers turned out. great song...
Blind/LIfehouse
---
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go
---
A mountain too high
A valley too wide
And within my heart a rift resides...
Blah. one moment inspiration hits and i managed to spew out three lines of stuff and there it leaves me... oh well. maybe i'd finish the poem or sth like that next time
but it's these days that everything seems to happen. kelvin and junliang called me out for ball, and as much as i hate turning down opportunities to meet up with friends i know i'm totally in no mood to go out. mom wants me to burn some cds for her and i've already told her i'd do it later for more than ten times already today. the proposals for all the announcements for blood donation are due tml and i know i can't afford to screw that up. i'd probably do that at midnight or sth. it's these reminders that i belong to the world, not the other way round that make me want to feel sorry for myself for being the person i am.
grr, i'm not expressing myself properly. reread the earlier part and it sounds so different from what i wana so. oh well, i'd just cut things short... so just lazed around the whole of today. woke up at 11+, had a simple brunch, spent a while on the com and napped. rinse and repeat... why are weekends always so short. and here comes monday again. and every minute means one closer to the blood donation drive. still have no idea how we're gonna get 200 people to donate.
listened to loads of music today. all hooked on lifehouse from the past week. then surfed around itunes for music previews/celebrity playlists, downloading the occasional song i like and marking some albums i wanna get when my accounts leaves the red. oh, here's the song that's playing if you're using ie (somehow i can't get it to work on firefox/opera) and have ur speakers turned out. great song...
Blind/LIfehouse
---
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go
---
A mountain too high
A valley too wide
And within my heart a rift resides...
Blah. one moment inspiration hits and i managed to spew out three lines of stuff and there it leaves me... oh well. maybe i'd finish the poem or sth like that next time
