Sunday, October 28, 2007
Instant Karma
Nothing like a dose of bad luck to put things in perspective... things haven't gone that well for the past week or so... started with the being late for barely a few minutes and having to do an extra hour. then making the mistake thanks to a slight oversight on my part. the argument between the specs and men. getting lost for a while looking for a nonexistant block thanks to my muddling up of certain numbers and being disappointed by the food after we finally got to the intended destination today. not doing so well in fm (i guess that's more related to skill. and is prob as trivial as any bad luck goes anyway, but still..) the spilt soup and slightly burning myself. and my betting (though, barring scotland, tt has been more like a trend stretching for some time than sth recent in the past week)
but somehow, i don't really feel that unlucky in a way. it's like this series of unfortunate events just made me more appreciative of some things around. it still sucks to be in those situations but sometimes suffering from these bouts once in a while don't feel that bad. it's like i'd only ever deserve that amount of good luck. so i can just console myself that i'm just repaying for all the horrible things i've done
hopefully, it'd end though. i can't say it hasn't affected me as much as i like to go about the same way, holding firm belief that it's just a passing phase and things will turn around before i know it. job satisfaction has probably the first to plummet amongst other things (though maybe it's the other way down, where the run has partly been caused by the things happening at my workplace)... and while i'm sure it'd end eventually, i can't see myself still being upbeat if it lasts. it's a good thing that the last time i remember being really down after a bout of bad luck has been months ago. things can so easily turn out to be another case of martin jol and tottenham. we all know they're way too strong to be slumping in the position their in. and everyone was (and is still) sure they will climb out of their mess after the first few games of the season. so one game just comes at a time. and poof. it's a quarter through the season and they're still mired in the situation. they will recover eventually but that's it. the season's over before it started. all the hopes of europe probably gone. ok. i digress (as usual). somehow i always delve into all sorts of theories of no relevance when in that contemplative and "reflecting" mood
on another note, i'm surprised i snapped during the argument. louis was the first one two, and i was next. 2 out of 8 haha. always thought that my tolerance of stuff before i get really angry and pissed was quite high and definitely higher than avergae. guess tt's not the case. maybe it's the way i handle things that didn't go well. more often then not i'd be ready and willing to take that step back, apologise and just get on with stuff, even if it means having to inconvenience myself and do a li'l bit of payback. but sometimes people just take advantage of it and gets unreasonable (maybe it's cos of the heat of the moment, i don't know). not the first time i got way worked up that way. and sometimes i think back, it's like way to extreme. like one moment i'd be sucking it all up and the next i'd retaliating and making sure life will be hell for them even if (and most of the time is) it kills me. if someone wants to play the game we can both die together. hmm, i should go for something more in the middle...
but somehow, i don't really feel that unlucky in a way. it's like this series of unfortunate events just made me more appreciative of some things around. it still sucks to be in those situations but sometimes suffering from these bouts once in a while don't feel that bad. it's like i'd only ever deserve that amount of good luck. so i can just console myself that i'm just repaying for all the horrible things i've done
hopefully, it'd end though. i can't say it hasn't affected me as much as i like to go about the same way, holding firm belief that it's just a passing phase and things will turn around before i know it. job satisfaction has probably the first to plummet amongst other things (though maybe it's the other way down, where the run has partly been caused by the things happening at my workplace)... and while i'm sure it'd end eventually, i can't see myself still being upbeat if it lasts. it's a good thing that the last time i remember being really down after a bout of bad luck has been months ago. things can so easily turn out to be another case of martin jol and tottenham. we all know they're way too strong to be slumping in the position their in. and everyone was (and is still) sure they will climb out of their mess after the first few games of the season. so one game just comes at a time. and poof. it's a quarter through the season and they're still mired in the situation. they will recover eventually but that's it. the season's over before it started. all the hopes of europe probably gone. ok. i digress (as usual). somehow i always delve into all sorts of theories of no relevance when in that contemplative and "reflecting" mood
on another note, i'm surprised i snapped during the argument. louis was the first one two, and i was next. 2 out of 8 haha. always thought that my tolerance of stuff before i get really angry and pissed was quite high and definitely higher than avergae. guess tt's not the case. maybe it's the way i handle things that didn't go well. more often then not i'd be ready and willing to take that step back, apologise and just get on with stuff, even if it means having to inconvenience myself and do a li'l bit of payback. but sometimes people just take advantage of it and gets unreasonable (maybe it's cos of the heat of the moment, i don't know). not the first time i got way worked up that way. and sometimes i think back, it's like way to extreme. like one moment i'd be sucking it all up and the next i'd retaliating and making sure life will be hell for them even if (and most of the time is) it kills me. if someone wants to play the game we can both die together. hmm, i should go for something more in the middle...
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
As we lie, in the shade of the poison trees
time sure moves fast... i guess that's the good thing bout the shift system. before i know it it's pay day again. the start of like the few days every month where i can just spend without really giving a hoot. and so it's the tenth again... i never keep track of time. it's just like in sch last time. every day will just pass day by day and it's only when u look back and find out that some event has passed and you totally forgot bout it that you realise the time. hmm... again i'm not really hitting the point. but oh well
and life's just going on like that. it's like those li'l dreams... nothing significant, no pt in remembering, just helps while time away. slipping in between the tired, jaded trance, daydreaming mode, gaming, reading, doing duty. hmm, now that i mention i think i've said that like how many times before. things getting busy but sometimes i guess it helps time pass faster while u're busy scurrying around. sense of accomplishment sometimes is good too though the times when mistakes start arising suck.
happy as it is... i guess i can never help enjoying myself too much in my comfort zone and not wanting to come out. on one hand there's the looking forward to ord next year. still far but at the rate things are going it's gonna find me before i even realise it. but quietly i'm dreading late jan/early feb period. ok. i won't continue cos i prob will sound gay saying it. but come to think of it, i'd be seeing six batches ord before i can enjoy the holy grail myself. whoa. am i ready for that...
heh. now i recall the last time i came here. okay. i'm random today. guess it's been a long time i've been feeling like that old geezer.. how fast things change. and don't.
okay. i guess i had enough for today. i see no point in coming here. and now i'm talking to myself. and all the jokes bout saw talking so much that he prob talks to himself on the way back when he gets bored. oh well... FM2008 gone gold. october 19th! woohoo! prob going into deserted island along with it til late nov... til then...
and life's just going on like that. it's like those li'l dreams... nothing significant, no pt in remembering, just helps while time away. slipping in between the tired, jaded trance, daydreaming mode, gaming, reading, doing duty. hmm, now that i mention i think i've said that like how many times before. things getting busy but sometimes i guess it helps time pass faster while u're busy scurrying around. sense of accomplishment sometimes is good too though the times when mistakes start arising suck.
happy as it is... i guess i can never help enjoying myself too much in my comfort zone and not wanting to come out. on one hand there's the looking forward to ord next year. still far but at the rate things are going it's gonna find me before i even realise it. but quietly i'm dreading late jan/early feb period. ok. i won't continue cos i prob will sound gay saying it. but come to think of it, i'd be seeing six batches ord before i can enjoy the holy grail myself. whoa. am i ready for that...
heh. now i recall the last time i came here. okay. i'm random today. guess it's been a long time i've been feeling like that old geezer.. how fast things change. and don't.
okay. i guess i had enough for today. i see no point in coming here. and now i'm talking to myself. and all the jokes bout saw talking so much that he prob talks to himself on the way back when he gets bored. oh well... FM2008 gone gold. october 19th! woohoo! prob going into deserted island along with it til late nov... til then...
