Sunday, October 28, 2007
Instant Karma
Nothing like a dose of bad luck to put things in perspective... things haven't gone that well for the past week or so... started with the being late for barely a few minutes and having to do an extra hour. then making the mistake thanks to a slight oversight on my part. the argument between the specs and men. getting lost for a while looking for a nonexistant block thanks to my muddling up of certain numbers and being disappointed by the food after we finally got to the intended destination today. not doing so well in fm (i guess that's more related to skill. and is prob as trivial as any bad luck goes anyway, but still..) the spilt soup and slightly burning myself. and my betting (though, barring scotland, tt has been more like a trend stretching for some time than sth recent in the past week)
but somehow, i don't really feel that unlucky in a way. it's like this series of unfortunate events just made me more appreciative of some things around. it still sucks to be in those situations but sometimes suffering from these bouts once in a while don't feel that bad. it's like i'd only ever deserve that amount of good luck. so i can just console myself that i'm just repaying for all the horrible things i've done
hopefully, it'd end though. i can't say it hasn't affected me as much as i like to go about the same way, holding firm belief that it's just a passing phase and things will turn around before i know it. job satisfaction has probably the first to plummet amongst other things (though maybe it's the other way down, where the run has partly been caused by the things happening at my workplace)... and while i'm sure it'd end eventually, i can't see myself still being upbeat if it lasts. it's a good thing that the last time i remember being really down after a bout of bad luck has been months ago. things can so easily turn out to be another case of martin jol and tottenham. we all know they're way too strong to be slumping in the position their in. and everyone was (and is still) sure they will climb out of their mess after the first few games of the season. so one game just comes at a time. and poof. it's a quarter through the season and they're still mired in the situation. they will recover eventually but that's it. the season's over before it started. all the hopes of europe probably gone. ok. i digress (as usual). somehow i always delve into all sorts of theories of no relevance when in that contemplative and "reflecting" mood
on another note, i'm surprised i snapped during the argument. louis was the first one two, and i was next. 2 out of 8 haha. always thought that my tolerance of stuff before i get really angry and pissed was quite high and definitely higher than avergae. guess tt's not the case. maybe it's the way i handle things that didn't go well. more often then not i'd be ready and willing to take that step back, apologise and just get on with stuff, even if it means having to inconvenience myself and do a li'l bit of payback. but sometimes people just take advantage of it and gets unreasonable (maybe it's cos of the heat of the moment, i don't know). not the first time i got way worked up that way. and sometimes i think back, it's like way to extreme. like one moment i'd be sucking it all up and the next i'd retaliating and making sure life will be hell for them even if (and most of the time is) it kills me. if someone wants to play the game we can both die together. hmm, i should go for something more in the middle...
but somehow, i don't really feel that unlucky in a way. it's like this series of unfortunate events just made me more appreciative of some things around. it still sucks to be in those situations but sometimes suffering from these bouts once in a while don't feel that bad. it's like i'd only ever deserve that amount of good luck. so i can just console myself that i'm just repaying for all the horrible things i've done
hopefully, it'd end though. i can't say it hasn't affected me as much as i like to go about the same way, holding firm belief that it's just a passing phase and things will turn around before i know it. job satisfaction has probably the first to plummet amongst other things (though maybe it's the other way down, where the run has partly been caused by the things happening at my workplace)... and while i'm sure it'd end eventually, i can't see myself still being upbeat if it lasts. it's a good thing that the last time i remember being really down after a bout of bad luck has been months ago. things can so easily turn out to be another case of martin jol and tottenham. we all know they're way too strong to be slumping in the position their in. and everyone was (and is still) sure they will climb out of their mess after the first few games of the season. so one game just comes at a time. and poof. it's a quarter through the season and they're still mired in the situation. they will recover eventually but that's it. the season's over before it started. all the hopes of europe probably gone. ok. i digress (as usual). somehow i always delve into all sorts of theories of no relevance when in that contemplative and "reflecting" mood
on another note, i'm surprised i snapped during the argument. louis was the first one two, and i was next. 2 out of 8 haha. always thought that my tolerance of stuff before i get really angry and pissed was quite high and definitely higher than avergae. guess tt's not the case. maybe it's the way i handle things that didn't go well. more often then not i'd be ready and willing to take that step back, apologise and just get on with stuff, even if it means having to inconvenience myself and do a li'l bit of payback. but sometimes people just take advantage of it and gets unreasonable (maybe it's cos of the heat of the moment, i don't know). not the first time i got way worked up that way. and sometimes i think back, it's like way to extreme. like one moment i'd be sucking it all up and the next i'd retaliating and making sure life will be hell for them even if (and most of the time is) it kills me. if someone wants to play the game we can both die together. hmm, i should go for something more in the middle...
