Monday, September 26, 2005
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A lot of things have happened. but kept holding off blogging so don't really feel like elaborating now.
wed: briefing for the temasek youth camp thing. almost all the student council presidents were there. add a few more councillors to that and you have a room where people start talking like they acually know each other for some time right off the bat. at least the pple there seem pretty nice. saw chai luang/sharon! at first i was looking out for the two people in tj. caught a glimpse of them walking in and thought, shucks, i don't know them. but just as she was gonna sit down it was "isn't that sharon? hmm, looks a li'l different, but it's her alrite." eye contact and it's her indeed hah. really nice catching up. hearing bout 01 post-kelvin and lymon. the random stuff, etc. great to have someone i know except see wai (and even then i don't know her after it was told that we were the two selected).
thus: i'm almost sure sth happened, but tt's what i get for not writing down whatever i wanna remember
fri: the magnets, an a capella group came to aj. real nice. especially andy, the beatboxer. he's probably the best in the world. except for the cymbal all the other sounds don't sound any different from the real thing. i esp like his snares and hi-hats... flawless and real cool. colin, the bass guy's really good and eloquent too.
sun: got the tickets for the magnets concert at victoria theatre. ^^. went with some classmates. some thought it wasn't that good cos the jokes from the aj performance were repeated. but i thoroughly enjoyed it. guess i don't mind things being the same every day. during many songs it seems like i'm always the last guy still clapping after the magnets initiated everyone to start clapping some time back. then trying to get hinho, etc to go along. and actually did the boogie thingy for the encore. didn't do it at aj, so thought, well, why not. i think i was the highest amongst the 9 of us who went then. kinda rare sight i guess haha. and bought their album after that lol. complete with all 6 signatures when they were coming down... lol, anna and evelyn were so disappointed that andy didn't look as good close-up. spoilt the image they had when looking from far, they say heh. but i thought they looked kinda suave.
hmm, i'm not taking the promos seriously enough. i will not be complacent... work, work, work...
You don't have to paint me a picture/Alan Jackson
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The kiss was colder than I remember
When we first said hello
I guess the flame's now a little lower
I can feel you letting go
You know the pain drops a little darker
Then when you first put it on
I guess your love's like some old cheap and magic marker
Said forever nice go
But you don't have to paint me a picture
You don't have to say things at all
You don't have to paint me a picture
I can see in the writing on the wall
When we first fell, we fell a long way
Summer nights and winter days
Mountain sunrise, ocean sunset
Hand in hand in the haze
Now it's cold heart summer evenings
And there's clouds on my sunrise
But you don't have to smile and say you're happy
I can see what's in your eyes
You don't have to paint me a picture
You don't have to say things at all
You don't have to paint me a picture
I can see in the writing on the wall
Loving this song. been stuck in my head for the past two weeks or so. so it's not the magnets heh. ugh, i'm too lazy to upload it for now. if i'm still loving i think i'd want to get this as background. or maybe i'd upload the magnets haha. (gosh, i'm so smitten over them like some fanboy)
when i first listened to it it sounded like some dreamy love song. maybe it's the influence from mltr's paint my love. or the way alan jackson and those country tunes sound so light-hearted. but upon more detailed hearing and looking up of the lyrics it now sounds so... deep and magical. truly, you don't have to paint me a picture.
this time i'd learn to be more stubborn. no more wishful thinking, always leaving the back door open to come back again. time to start living without fear of what others think.
and to 'you', thanks a whole lot for making me understand just what a fool i was
wed: briefing for the temasek youth camp thing. almost all the student council presidents were there. add a few more councillors to that and you have a room where people start talking like they acually know each other for some time right off the bat. at least the pple there seem pretty nice. saw chai luang/sharon! at first i was looking out for the two people in tj. caught a glimpse of them walking in and thought, shucks, i don't know them. but just as she was gonna sit down it was "isn't that sharon? hmm, looks a li'l different, but it's her alrite." eye contact and it's her indeed hah. really nice catching up. hearing bout 01 post-kelvin and lymon. the random stuff, etc. great to have someone i know except see wai (and even then i don't know her after it was told that we were the two selected).
thus: i'm almost sure sth happened, but tt's what i get for not writing down whatever i wanna remember
fri: the magnets, an a capella group came to aj. real nice. especially andy, the beatboxer. he's probably the best in the world. except for the cymbal all the other sounds don't sound any different from the real thing. i esp like his snares and hi-hats... flawless and real cool. colin, the bass guy's really good and eloquent too.
sun: got the tickets for the magnets concert at victoria theatre. ^^. went with some classmates. some thought it wasn't that good cos the jokes from the aj performance were repeated. but i thoroughly enjoyed it. guess i don't mind things being the same every day. during many songs it seems like i'm always the last guy still clapping after the magnets initiated everyone to start clapping some time back. then trying to get hinho, etc to go along. and actually did the boogie thingy for the encore. didn't do it at aj, so thought, well, why not. i think i was the highest amongst the 9 of us who went then. kinda rare sight i guess haha. and bought their album after that lol. complete with all 6 signatures when they were coming down... lol, anna and evelyn were so disappointed that andy didn't look as good close-up. spoilt the image they had when looking from far, they say heh. but i thought they looked kinda suave.
hmm, i'm not taking the promos seriously enough. i will not be complacent... work, work, work...
You don't have to paint me a picture/Alan Jackson
---
The kiss was colder than I remember
When we first said hello
I guess the flame's now a little lower
I can feel you letting go
You know the pain drops a little darker
Then when you first put it on
I guess your love's like some old cheap and magic marker
Said forever nice go
But you don't have to paint me a picture
You don't have to say things at all
You don't have to paint me a picture
I can see in the writing on the wall
When we first fell, we fell a long way
Summer nights and winter days
Mountain sunrise, ocean sunset
Hand in hand in the haze
Now it's cold heart summer evenings
And there's clouds on my sunrise
But you don't have to smile and say you're happy
I can see what's in your eyes
You don't have to paint me a picture
You don't have to say things at all
You don't have to paint me a picture
I can see in the writing on the wall
Loving this song. been stuck in my head for the past two weeks or so. so it's not the magnets heh. ugh, i'm too lazy to upload it for now. if i'm still loving i think i'd want to get this as background. or maybe i'd upload the magnets haha. (gosh, i'm so smitten over them like some fanboy)
when i first listened to it it sounded like some dreamy love song. maybe it's the influence from mltr's paint my love. or the way alan jackson and those country tunes sound so light-hearted. but upon more detailed hearing and looking up of the lyrics it now sounds so... deep and magical. truly, you don't have to paint me a picture.
this time i'd learn to be more stubborn. no more wishful thinking, always leaving the back door open to come back again. time to start living without fear of what others think.
and to 'you', thanks a whole lot for making me understand just what a fool i was
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
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it's one of those days again. where i wonder bout how everything could even have been possible. thinking how blessed i am for things to be able to go 'normally' when the odds seem so stacked. and for some reason, melancholy was slipping in from all those thinking. must have been lim kok wee's kao pei-ing during pe for some useless stuff. acting so obnoxiously self righteous over something so unreasonable. i wonder what has happened to some teacher's common sense.
but i'm truly blessed for all the finer things in life. before the gloom can seep in long enough for me to wallow in my ill-advised indulgence simple things like an exquisitely made latte, the brilliant night sky and some captivating music managed to lift me up. and then there's this chat with lymon. been a long, long time since i felt so happy for someone. i'm still beaming now thinking bout all the stuff haha. it's like watching two innocent kids at the playground having the time of their lifetime just chasing each other around, etc, mirthful, merry and gay (gee, i sound so old). truly i wish that it will all be a fairytale. it's things like this which makes you believe in eternity again. for so long i've been searching for sth eternal, sadly it seems like eternity doesn't last forever. but i'd hold out for the dream. after all, when there's still hope around bank on me to be there. what else can explain all the silly things i do sometimes which so often seem like (and almost always turns out to be) a plain waste of time. some people find the willpower to live in trying times in religion, some find it in belief while yet others in fear. hope's probably the key element for me.
heh. so i was talking bout someone else and before i know it it's back to me, myself and i again. sheesh, i'm getting more and more narcissistic by the day. and this blog's probably not doing it any good. time out then
but i'm truly blessed for all the finer things in life. before the gloom can seep in long enough for me to wallow in my ill-advised indulgence simple things like an exquisitely made latte, the brilliant night sky and some captivating music managed to lift me up. and then there's this chat with lymon. been a long, long time since i felt so happy for someone. i'm still beaming now thinking bout all the stuff haha. it's like watching two innocent kids at the playground having the time of their lifetime just chasing each other around, etc, mirthful, merry and gay (gee, i sound so old). truly i wish that it will all be a fairytale. it's things like this which makes you believe in eternity again. for so long i've been searching for sth eternal, sadly it seems like eternity doesn't last forever. but i'd hold out for the dream. after all, when there's still hope around bank on me to be there. what else can explain all the silly things i do sometimes which so often seem like (and almost always turns out to be) a plain waste of time. some people find the willpower to live in trying times in religion, some find it in belief while yet others in fear. hope's probably the key element for me.
heh. so i was talking bout someone else and before i know it it's back to me, myself and i again. sheesh, i'm getting more and more narcissistic by the day. and this blog's probably not doing it any good. time out then
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Overflow
it's such a wonder how the slightest of things can lift one's spirit up so, and equally as bewildering how something as insignificant can lead to so much angst and turmoil
it's just too bad that the competitive people are meant to rule and call the shots. maybe one day they'd comprehend that not everyone thrive in having a packed, enriching life. and even better, perhaps they can learn to sit back and smell all the wonderful roses along the way
it's just too bad that the competitive people are meant to rule and call the shots. maybe one day they'd comprehend that not everyone thrive in having a packed, enriching life. and even better, perhaps they can learn to sit back and smell all the wonderful roses along the way
Monday, September 12, 2005
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Tonight i feel like an idiot
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so many people blogging bout going back to sch tml. so in line with the comformist spirit, i shall do the same. actually i should sleep. planned to pack bag and do so. but taking an eternity to get things sorted. so kinda gave up. but sth's telling me not to sleep yet. so here i am for a while before forcing myself to. 4th term resolution: get rid of monday morning blues. or just early morning blues at that. or even better to lose that eternal sleepiness in chem, phy and gp. then again, it's kinda nice sleeping in lectures. argh, jekyll and hyde again heh.
it's like i had been going around sch in a stupor just following my class around for classes without actually being therethe last few days before the holidays. hope to get rid of that. i need more concentration when it matters. and finally drafted some sort of a study plan. actually not really considering it just reads (1st weekend: phy, 2nd weekend: chem, 3rd weekend: maths). need to do sth more in depth and start the revision soon. heard so many already half way done or sth. at least my tutorials are kinda up to date. except for those which needs tys... and as unprepared as i am for the promos i can't wait for it to end.
i'm almost tempted to post lyrics/verses again haha. don't think i wanna keep up with that habit. well, i guess it's due to my more frequent playing of music most days. i don't normally turn on itunes whenever the pc's on last time... so i'd just let the lines ring inside my head then...
it's like i had been going around sch in a stupor just following my class around for classes without actually being therethe last few days before the holidays. hope to get rid of that. i need more concentration when it matters. and finally drafted some sort of a study plan. actually not really considering it just reads (1st weekend: phy, 2nd weekend: chem, 3rd weekend: maths). need to do sth more in depth and start the revision soon. heard so many already half way done or sth. at least my tutorials are kinda up to date. except for those which needs tys... and as unprepared as i am for the promos i can't wait for it to end.
i'm almost tempted to post lyrics/verses again haha. don't think i wanna keep up with that habit. well, i guess it's due to my more frequent playing of music most days. i don't normally turn on itunes whenever the pc's on last time... so i'd just let the lines ring inside my head then...
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Ramblings
i really love my ipod haha. always chooses the right song at the right time. this time it's kimi sae ireba. ED song for love hina. i've had that for ages but the starting 'i'm a dreamer' have never resonated so...
there was a time i firmly proclaim myself as a pessimist. now i'm no longer so sure. at heart i think i'm indeed a dreamer. someone who lives in dreams and fantasies. then comes along the reality check. and everything seems to crash back into the ground. but i still hold on to those aspirations and hopes, yearning one day that it will somehow happen
most of the times i like to play by the rules. in this game with no rules. i'm long past the stage of thinking that life is fair, but then again sometimes i think i still think that way. so i continue playing my game largely adhering to my own set of rules, only to find the winners often those who play loose. so sometimes i step out of my imaginary line, only to loathe what i did once i'm done
hmm, read what i just typed... sound kinda depressed when i'm not really so... must be the night making me oh-so-philosophical again. i guess i shan't continue from there then. was gonna go on bout lying but i think i'm out of point now anyway what with how i expressed everything.
filling up the form for the youth camp thingy now. sigh, it's been a cause of so many headaches. at first i thought it sounded pretty cool. thought it was held overseas. so found it quite interesting to go somewhere (probably) new and interact with other people. then i got to know it's the overseas people coming over. half the fun gone. and next i realised each jc only sending two people. which probably means quite some hotshots (i still don't get why they got me to go... damn, why did hongyi have that volleyball thingy. and there's still this kenneth lee. and other 'high-flyers'). i dunno, but my experiences with such things haven't gone too well.. there's always this fire burning in these people and i just can't match up to their passion giving how i like things to be laid back and stuff. well, guess i can just hope and hold out for the best. visits to NUS and TLC seems nice, science centre and night safari could be kinda fun if the company is right, so yeah. it might just go well. and a mini-obs of some sort. don't really know what to expect but could be fun. though the contry seminar, exhibit and cultural night thingy seem to be the sort of things i loathe the most.
so i agreed to go mainly cos i don't really want some sort of a run in with the pw hod (who seems kinda nice at least) and the vp (now tt's another matter. grr... she seem to have some agenda against first aid. a week into my publicity head post and i got 3 complaints from her, albeit indirectly, already.) and as mentioned earlier, the thing did seem kinda fun then. but now with the knowledge of how the thing is, the planning of the chalet and travel plans gave me second thoughts. so how am i supposed to answer "how do you think you can contribute to this programme?" and "What do you hope to gain/learn from this programme?". wonder if i can just put N/A in those blanks lor. but vp checking them... grr... well, i've given my consent, so, again, hope haha.
so holidays are gonna end. i will miss meeting up with friends i guess. 3 weeks to promos... kinda scary but then again i sorta want to get over and done with it. other pple seem to have put in a lot of effort during the hols. it's time i ought to start. hope the kinda consistent work will be good enough cos i seriously doubt i'd have the time to revise thoroughly.
okay, i probably have ranted enough. oyasuminasai miina-san =)(=
there was a time i firmly proclaim myself as a pessimist. now i'm no longer so sure. at heart i think i'm indeed a dreamer. someone who lives in dreams and fantasies. then comes along the reality check. and everything seems to crash back into the ground. but i still hold on to those aspirations and hopes, yearning one day that it will somehow happen
most of the times i like to play by the rules. in this game with no rules. i'm long past the stage of thinking that life is fair, but then again sometimes i think i still think that way. so i continue playing my game largely adhering to my own set of rules, only to find the winners often those who play loose. so sometimes i step out of my imaginary line, only to loathe what i did once i'm done
hmm, read what i just typed... sound kinda depressed when i'm not really so... must be the night making me oh-so-philosophical again. i guess i shan't continue from there then. was gonna go on bout lying but i think i'm out of point now anyway what with how i expressed everything.
filling up the form for the youth camp thingy now. sigh, it's been a cause of so many headaches. at first i thought it sounded pretty cool. thought it was held overseas. so found it quite interesting to go somewhere (probably) new and interact with other people. then i got to know it's the overseas people coming over. half the fun gone. and next i realised each jc only sending two people. which probably means quite some hotshots (i still don't get why they got me to go... damn, why did hongyi have that volleyball thingy. and there's still this kenneth lee. and other 'high-flyers'). i dunno, but my experiences with such things haven't gone too well.. there's always this fire burning in these people and i just can't match up to their passion giving how i like things to be laid back and stuff. well, guess i can just hope and hold out for the best. visits to NUS and TLC seems nice, science centre and night safari could be kinda fun if the company is right, so yeah. it might just go well. and a mini-obs of some sort. don't really know what to expect but could be fun. though the contry seminar, exhibit and cultural night thingy seem to be the sort of things i loathe the most.
so i agreed to go mainly cos i don't really want some sort of a run in with the pw hod (who seems kinda nice at least) and the vp (now tt's another matter. grr... she seem to have some agenda against first aid. a week into my publicity head post and i got 3 complaints from her, albeit indirectly, already.) and as mentioned earlier, the thing did seem kinda fun then. but now with the knowledge of how the thing is, the planning of the chalet and travel plans gave me second thoughts. so how am i supposed to answer "how do you think you can contribute to this programme?" and "What do you hope to gain/learn from this programme?". wonder if i can just put N/A in those blanks lor. but vp checking them... grr... well, i've given my consent, so, again, hope haha.
so holidays are gonna end. i will miss meeting up with friends i guess. 3 weeks to promos... kinda scary but then again i sorta want to get over and done with it. other pple seem to have put in a lot of effort during the hols. it's time i ought to start. hope the kinda consistent work will be good enough cos i seriously doubt i'd have the time to revise thoroughly.
okay, i probably have ranted enough. oyasuminasai miina-san =)(=
Friday, September 09, 2005
Here it goes again
There i go again. new song... Here By Me by 3 Doors Down. hmm, the songs always sound much worse in 56kbs. but i still like them heh. i wonder what's the reason i don't normally like to have the more popular, supposedly nicer songs up. like blind vs you and me... now this vs here without you which i love as well...
past few days went great for me. and before i know it it's thursday now. oh wait, it's friday :(. shucks. i haven't slacked as much as i wanted to. in terms of just idling away at home i mean. and i haven't done any work bar one tutorial.
tennis and badminton was kinda fun. hope we can squeeze some time out again. somehow i don't seem to take promos seriously enough. but maybe tt's the right way to approach tests and exams.
going on to something unrelated again, the thought of pw's kinda haunting me. eom due last friday. i haven't handed mine up. or found a new article. and gotta meet up tml. sian... ok, shall resolve to study hard on sunday. maybe i'd wake up early and go to the lib just when it opens. i need to find some routine in my studying places instead of hopping around whereever's free or i/my friends feel like going. somehow amk lib still hasn't turned out to be like woodlands when jeff was there. even though they know my drinks now heh.
Verses of the day (don't worry, this is not gonna continue. i think. ;))
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love
And everything I have in this world
All that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me
Click here for the full lyrics.
past few days went great for me. and before i know it it's thursday now. oh wait, it's friday :(. shucks. i haven't slacked as much as i wanted to. in terms of just idling away at home i mean. and i haven't done any work bar one tutorial.
tennis and badminton was kinda fun. hope we can squeeze some time out again. somehow i don't seem to take promos seriously enough. but maybe tt's the right way to approach tests and exams.
going on to something unrelated again, the thought of pw's kinda haunting me. eom due last friday. i haven't handed mine up. or found a new article. and gotta meet up tml. sian... ok, shall resolve to study hard on sunday. maybe i'd wake up early and go to the lib just when it opens. i need to find some routine in my studying places instead of hopping around whereever's free or i/my friends feel like going. somehow amk lib still hasn't turned out to be like woodlands when jeff was there. even though they know my drinks now heh.
Verses of the day (don't worry, this is not gonna continue. i think. ;))
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love
And everything I have in this world
All that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me
Click here for the full lyrics.
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Saint
Sometimes i think my problem's i think i'm a saint. that i can do anything and everything as long as i set myself to. and of course, that doesn't happen. i guess that's the best reason i can give myself over many things. you know that incredulous feeling knowing that you've made a difference to someone's life and that effort is appreciated? maybe i can't do that everyday. and til now i still say maybe cos one day i sincerely hope to be able to do that.
in other news, i've been out so often this 'long weekend'. and at aaron's house almost everyday i think. it's nice meeting up with friends. but i guess it's time to put in the effort in studies.
Verses of the day
"The more you see the less you know
The less you find out as you go
I knew much more then than I do now
...
The more you know the less you feel
Some pray for others steal
Blessings are not just for the ones who kneel... luckily"
City of blinding lights/U2
in other news, i've been out so often this 'long weekend'. and at aaron's house almost everyday i think. it's nice meeting up with friends. but i guess it's time to put in the effort in studies.
Verses of the day
"The more you see the less you know
The less you find out as you go
I knew much more then than I do now
...
The more you know the less you feel
Some pray for others steal
Blessings are not just for the ones who kneel... luckily"
City of blinding lights/U2
