Tuesday, September 20, 2005
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it's one of those days again. where i wonder bout how everything could even have been possible. thinking how blessed i am for things to be able to go 'normally' when the odds seem so stacked. and for some reason, melancholy was slipping in from all those thinking. must have been lim kok wee's kao pei-ing during pe for some useless stuff. acting so obnoxiously self righteous over something so unreasonable. i wonder what has happened to some teacher's common sense.
but i'm truly blessed for all the finer things in life. before the gloom can seep in long enough for me to wallow in my ill-advised indulgence simple things like an exquisitely made latte, the brilliant night sky and some captivating music managed to lift me up. and then there's this chat with lymon. been a long, long time since i felt so happy for someone. i'm still beaming now thinking bout all the stuff haha. it's like watching two innocent kids at the playground having the time of their lifetime just chasing each other around, etc, mirthful, merry and gay (gee, i sound so old). truly i wish that it will all be a fairytale. it's things like this which makes you believe in eternity again. for so long i've been searching for sth eternal, sadly it seems like eternity doesn't last forever. but i'd hold out for the dream. after all, when there's still hope around bank on me to be there. what else can explain all the silly things i do sometimes which so often seem like (and almost always turns out to be) a plain waste of time. some people find the willpower to live in trying times in religion, some find it in belief while yet others in fear. hope's probably the key element for me.
heh. so i was talking bout someone else and before i know it it's back to me, myself and i again. sheesh, i'm getting more and more narcissistic by the day. and this blog's probably not doing it any good. time out then
but i'm truly blessed for all the finer things in life. before the gloom can seep in long enough for me to wallow in my ill-advised indulgence simple things like an exquisitely made latte, the brilliant night sky and some captivating music managed to lift me up. and then there's this chat with lymon. been a long, long time since i felt so happy for someone. i'm still beaming now thinking bout all the stuff haha. it's like watching two innocent kids at the playground having the time of their lifetime just chasing each other around, etc, mirthful, merry and gay (gee, i sound so old). truly i wish that it will all be a fairytale. it's things like this which makes you believe in eternity again. for so long i've been searching for sth eternal, sadly it seems like eternity doesn't last forever. but i'd hold out for the dream. after all, when there's still hope around bank on me to be there. what else can explain all the silly things i do sometimes which so often seem like (and almost always turns out to be) a plain waste of time. some people find the willpower to live in trying times in religion, some find it in belief while yet others in fear. hope's probably the key element for me.
heh. so i was talking bout someone else and before i know it it's back to me, myself and i again. sheesh, i'm getting more and more narcissistic by the day. and this blog's probably not doing it any good. time out then
