Thursday, February 16, 2006
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it's been some time. a long while. but i knew it was gonna come anyway... i just dunno what the heck just happened. i guess it's just the build up of those small, trivial stuff. and perhaps signs of it started surfacing a few days back. but oh well
had this bridge program stuff for gp today. where the supposedly weaker students went for 'remedial' while the 'stronger' ones went for 'enrichment' after school at 5+. well, both synonyms for staying back for me. i guess it wasn't tt bad. larry lee toned down the kao-pei tone and cracked quite a number of jokes. his humour is interesting... always said in tt tone of his with a tinge of cynicism. talked bout cults and fanatism. didn't understand half of it, esp with the malcolm x part. but oh well. he was saying how this cult group in japan has all those professors and highly educated people. then said how those more intelligent people with no aims and goals in life are most susceptible to cult ideology. then made a reference to the people in the lt. and then i thought bout how he was almost like pinpointing me. i've never had much of a goal in life, and am staunch-ly unreligious. and all the gp teachers have said at some point or another how important religion for our spiritual fulfilment. sometimes i wonder if i can make it through when i'm down in the trenches. oh well. i should just believe in myself. believe in hope.
on to sth unrelated... hmmm... blargh. i admit it. i'm envious. there's only so much u can feel happy bout before u start yearning for it as well. so i'm selfish... i wonder what lies ahead. that missing jigsaw piece seems eternity away. oh well... hmm, i'm feeling tipsy. tempted to just not care and have an experience of how feeling high is like. heck. i'm even interested in knowing how a hangover really feels like. damn. restrain... so long then
had this bridge program stuff for gp today. where the supposedly weaker students went for 'remedial' while the 'stronger' ones went for 'enrichment' after school at 5+. well, both synonyms for staying back for me. i guess it wasn't tt bad. larry lee toned down the kao-pei tone and cracked quite a number of jokes. his humour is interesting... always said in tt tone of his with a tinge of cynicism. talked bout cults and fanatism. didn't understand half of it, esp with the malcolm x part. but oh well. he was saying how this cult group in japan has all those professors and highly educated people. then said how those more intelligent people with no aims and goals in life are most susceptible to cult ideology. then made a reference to the people in the lt. and then i thought bout how he was almost like pinpointing me. i've never had much of a goal in life, and am staunch-ly unreligious. and all the gp teachers have said at some point or another how important religion for our spiritual fulfilment. sometimes i wonder if i can make it through when i'm down in the trenches. oh well. i should just believe in myself. believe in hope.
on to sth unrelated... hmmm... blargh. i admit it. i'm envious. there's only so much u can feel happy bout before u start yearning for it as well. so i'm selfish... i wonder what lies ahead. that missing jigsaw piece seems eternity away. oh well... hmm, i'm feeling tipsy. tempted to just not care and have an experience of how feeling high is like. heck. i'm even interested in knowing how a hangover really feels like. damn. restrain... so long then
