The simpler life...

i can't help but agree totally with what eng wen said today about people no longer knowing how to read between the lines. it's one thing to be right up there with a person being able to observe his/her actions and tone but another to get someone's feelings with just words, be it during chatting, blogging or whatever. more and more recently i've been fascinated by this thing called the english language... sometimes i marvel while trying to explain some english stuff as the gp buddy and discovering that even though i don't really know why i use certain words/phrasing, it just comes intuitively and seem to really convey what i'm thinking. most of the time my abysmal vocab fails me, but otherwise i'm amazed at the different ways you can phrase the same thing, and they actually mean something slightly different. i've always believed a person's emotion exudes out unknowingly through the words he/she chooses and the way everything is put together anyway. can almost go onto a long, long story bout yet another one of my weird philosophies but today's just not the day hah.

ok, so back to what eng wen was saying... lol, felt nice being the only one in class who knows specifically what he meant, and it was exactly what i thought when i saw it. maybe i'm the one who cannot read between the lines and the perceived insensitivity is actually deliberate as a way to lighten up things, but i don't think so...

and it's these instances that make you feel more comfortable with a teacher bit by bit when you share the same sentiments on those li'l things in life. sometimes i don't agree with the things he say completely, but on such a subjective subject like gp it's impossible to find a good teacher with whom you can agree totally with. and there are certain things where i just like to go the unconventional way. it's like the impromptu speaking course which i attended last friday. sort of anyway.

k, so was planning to blog bout that but laziness and the seemingly boringness of it all put me off. but now that i'm on it, might as well... so friday i was down for chinese oral. and some temasek seminar workshop. then there is this dumb alpha list course which we had to attend either on friday or youth day. and it was like, duh, who would wanna go back to school during youth day for some useless course. so i signed up for it and had to be at 3 places at one time. i actually wasn't supposed to sign up for friday's session cos of oral so can't use that for excuse, so plan was to 'go toilet' and rush between the three.

so the course started first. was in lt5, and my thought process was it's an lt, so 'going to toilet' and being missing for 30min to an hour won't be too obvious as long as i present the impromtu speech early on. then thought it was a big mistake when i first went into the lt. it's not like an lt at all, with its semi-circular layout. it's so obvious to the person who's conducting, or whatever teacher's taking attendence that someone's absent for upwards of 30min a few times. and there is this teacher giving us (kenneth, zhen hao, me) attitude cos we were 5min late. like we want to attend this horrible thing. wonder why they put these teachers with loads of attitude in charge of alpha list. wendy koh and now whoever-she-is. can't they be like mrs chai (i think that's her name... hongyi said so...), always portraying an image of a 'ci-xiang' mother with her smile and demeanor. but oh well. slipped out of it 30min into the thing with attendance taken to go to oral.

i was the third or fourth person so thought i'd be over in a jiffy but forgot bout the stupid rules to quarantine people at one corner til 2.30 (it started at 1.40). and they only let us go at 2.50 at that. oral... it's a national examination but somehow it didn't feel anything like that. not unlike spa. surprised i was really calm before and during the thing. and we were given 5min to read the passage. then woei jin in front of me finished before the time's up. i didn't really feel like continuing to read the passage and just told mr chua i was ready and proceeded to take the oral lol. think i didn't do that badly. i hope.

so went back to the impromptu speaking course thinking i could use oral as an excuse for the temasek seminar. it was presentation time. after they had taught some skills and techniques to impromptu speaking. my turn came soon. i went up, said my topic and the person asked me what technique i was gonna use for my speech. and i didn't know anything cos i was 'going toilet'. so just crapped about how i feel more comfortable speaking out whatever's on my mind instead of using the techniques. impromptu speaking indeed. more so than the presentation where i continued crapping bout how i'd like to speak with an amoeba and how i'd rather learn another language than speak with animals. oh well. went toilet again after that to rush to temasek seminar. at the end of the day didn't know what was going on at both places but so glad i got over with it. i appreciate the efforts of whoever organised such stuff but shouldn't it be made optional so that only people who are really interested in it will join? and not by plainly forcing. utter waste of time.

oh yeah, i digressed. so it's how i prefer to do things by instinct most of the times. just do and say whatever comes up in my mind. i can never stick to plans anyway. now i'm lost at what i'm blogging all this bout. oh well, i guess i forgot.

quite a cheerful day for me today. well, except for pe which made me feel so weak again. pleasant surprises aplenty. i think i might even say felt like god lol. but awkward in a sense too having to deal with all the bringing up. the only times i can talk bout how i really feel is with old friends in hushed voices. but again as eng wen said, what are results really... i hope my values and take on life won't change just cos of this. lol, i think i sound like i'm worshipping him. i wonder if he somehow managed to find this somehow and is reading this heh. drop a note, eh, if you are.

lol, even made a promise just now to go vegan for a whole week (yup, not even eggs which i eat like more than one a day) if i complete the 'grand slam'. think not. and in a sense hoping not, and not cos i have to go without meat, eggs, milk and everything i love so much lol. i've been really lucky, and imo being too lucky isn't that good. been wanting to write an entry on counting my blessings but again have been putting things off. oh well. aaron's probably gonna complain i always 'break my promise' of playing guild wars, or playing so little. and today it's no longer 'just when i wanted to log in, someone chats with me' reason. but so tired anyway. argh, i'd just have to bear with more complains tml. to those still with me, have a nice day ^^