The simpler life...

k, yesterday went to some airbase as part of temasek seminar thingy... waste of time as usual... some unmanned aircraft stuff with so many people asking to sign up. only fun part was the simulator (oh, and the refreshments)... quite weird driving in third person view... one moment right means left on the screen and the next it's the right way again... quite fun, but it's like all i did was follow his idiot-proof instructions... so cool how he managed to save the plane from crashing everytime i made a mistake. lol, all the talk bout 'born natural' and 'you have talent' to get me to sign up heh.

so to today. went lib study as usual (come to think of it, not really usual... i've not gone there regularly for some time, but oh well)... it was just horrible and horrible. dunno why today my hand was shaking quite badly... it's already pretty bad on most days, and today... i didn't even do any strenous activities lately. now holding a pen's a challenging task already. and was struggling to write legibly.. need to either use two or three lines for my letters or slur everything up in one pile of horrid turd. so freaking frustrating... and was concentrating more in making the letters clear than actually understanding and remembering the stuff.

in the end turned to just reading. much better, got what i set out to do done. but keep thinking i missed something. left at 4+ when i started at 2+. not even 2h. last week i remembered i was planning to study til 7. then ended up leaving at 5+. then today planned for 6... my determination's just so horrible. was so stressed out and irritated at my shaking hands that i stopped and rested for a while at that time. then the staff there asked me to get something... sian, so left.

still feeling horrible then. it's like you just can't control a part of your body... i've always joked that i'd get parkinson's when i grow old (if i do, that is), now it's really looking like reality... this is bad... really hope this won't continue til monday. can't imagine writing an essay for gp with hands shaking all over. i already felt like slamming my pen at the lib writing less than 2 pages of brief notes... can't imagine having to go through that pain writing an entire essay...

decided to go watch madagascar after that to cheer up after that. think it managed to work ^^. felt weird talking bout how frustrated i was heh. the penguins are so cute! have an affinity for penguins after todd and penguin, and my... wasn't as funny as i'd like it to be, the movie, but still nice and good for a few chuckles here and there.

women sure have it good lol. can always blame mood swings on pms. i really shouldn't be irked by a li'l thing like the inability to stop my hands from shaking... grr.. saw this on benjamin's blog (first aid senior)... hope he don't mind me stealing bandwidth...


think it was from teenage magazine or something in relation to my boyfriend is type b... hmm...