The simpler life...

Life's just moving on nowadays... slowly i'm trudging on, day by day... as huang lao shi told me, it won't be easy but it'd be over in a flash... so things starting to fall into some kind of routine now... think i'm adapting pretty well to my class, which is nice. spending some time with them while not forgetting the old ones (at least the few of us who still hang out quite often together)... trying to organise some sort of gathering for my li'l group and catch up with those in other jcs while relaxing a day away this weekend. hope it can work out and turn out well

sch is just sch i guess. half the time i'd be dozing off with this fatigue i just can't shake off, and half of the remaining half i'd be trying to rush tutorials in class to finish off those questions already due. so at least i'm spending at least a quarter of my time really learning or interacting with the class. some days i feel more energetic and actually pass through the day alrite, some days get kinda moody and swing between interacting and just stoning away, some days just move along the lessons as it is. guess it all evens out lah

finding that fine line between what i hope, what i want, what is imminent and what is realistic is really tough... i don't think i'd ever find it, but hopefully things wouldn't turn out so bad. then again how do i define what is bad... would something opposite of what i hoped for but was imminent and realistic be good or bad? what if what i hope for means that i won't get what i want? maybe all i need is time, put my mind off it for a while and *blink* i've unravelled the mystery of life, attained nirvana and nothing no longer matters... two months or less to get there? oh well, enough rhethorical stuff for now


Untitled/Simple Plan
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I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me