Sunday, February 20, 2005
Coaster-ride
this week has been scary... really scary... so many things going through my mind. the angel and devil battling almost non-stop inside, and though i've been wanting to side with the angel, it doesn't seem strong enough. so up and down it's been the whole week since tuesday... at least the week's coming to an end. i can't take many more days like this or i'd go mad so very easily.
but guess i shall look at it from the bright side this time... every moment i struggle means a step closer to strengthening my mettle to overcome the problems. i'd be a stronger person coming out of this!
and this week also told me that it's fair time i start looking for some hobby to do during free time so as to prevent myself from thinking too much. a long time ago when i was still a very small kid it was the television like most people, but slowly it became not stimulating enough (u're just staring at moving pictures i thought sometime back) and my mind could wander even while watching tv so i switched to video gaming.
sadly the o levels took that away, what with the mindless mugging leaving li'l time for anything else... after that it was lots of hanging out with friends so there was li'l hurry to find something to do with spare time. but now, with school back yet again, i'm left with nothing much to do. not that i wanna get myself caught up with all the work piling up... preparation for o levels is enough work for some time. for now i'm fine just finishing up stuff only when they're really pressing... but i digress...
nowadays gaming can't seem to really captivate me. maybe it's too long since i've did so seriously, or maybe i've been doing it so long i can now navigate through a game while daydreaming too... trying to get back into watching tv nowadays but with scv gone there's a limit to the no. of interesting programs... oh well, time to slowly try out new things this coming week...
next week gonna start ponning certain tutorials... last rest before the work really piles up after second intake that even if i skive much it'd be one hell of a hectic journey. i'm thinking of taking 3 o levels, but then i wanna take f maths, which comes with physics, but chem's needed for many uni courses... bah...
some things i'd miss after leaving tj. will miss quite a few teachers. mr ngoh have been a great fm tutor and lecturer, gonna miss his lesssons, and mr ng and mrs lim (who always remind me of miss tan somehow) are pretty good. mrs foo, chem tutor is quite good too... at least physics teachers will be changing. totally lost interest in it after the horrible lectures and even worse tutor... oh well, enough ranting bout this for now.
my hopes and wishes don't seem to come true often (;P), but hoping the coaster ride will end. new week ahead, things to look forward too, results coming out, tutorials to pon... let's go...
but guess i shall look at it from the bright side this time... every moment i struggle means a step closer to strengthening my mettle to overcome the problems. i'd be a stronger person coming out of this!
and this week also told me that it's fair time i start looking for some hobby to do during free time so as to prevent myself from thinking too much. a long time ago when i was still a very small kid it was the television like most people, but slowly it became not stimulating enough (u're just staring at moving pictures i thought sometime back) and my mind could wander even while watching tv so i switched to video gaming.
sadly the o levels took that away, what with the mindless mugging leaving li'l time for anything else... after that it was lots of hanging out with friends so there was li'l hurry to find something to do with spare time. but now, with school back yet again, i'm left with nothing much to do. not that i wanna get myself caught up with all the work piling up... preparation for o levels is enough work for some time. for now i'm fine just finishing up stuff only when they're really pressing... but i digress...
nowadays gaming can't seem to really captivate me. maybe it's too long since i've did so seriously, or maybe i've been doing it so long i can now navigate through a game while daydreaming too... trying to get back into watching tv nowadays but with scv gone there's a limit to the no. of interesting programs... oh well, time to slowly try out new things this coming week...
next week gonna start ponning certain tutorials... last rest before the work really piles up after second intake that even if i skive much it'd be one hell of a hectic journey. i'm thinking of taking 3 o levels, but then i wanna take f maths, which comes with physics, but chem's needed for many uni courses... bah...
some things i'd miss after leaving tj. will miss quite a few teachers. mr ngoh have been a great fm tutor and lecturer, gonna miss his lesssons, and mr ng and mrs lim (who always remind me of miss tan somehow) are pretty good. mrs foo, chem tutor is quite good too... at least physics teachers will be changing. totally lost interest in it after the horrible lectures and even worse tutor... oh well, enough ranting bout this for now.
my hopes and wishes don't seem to come true often (;P), but hoping the coaster ride will end. new week ahead, things to look forward too, results coming out, tutorials to pon... let's go...
