Monday, January 03, 2005
Disorientated Orientation
First day kinda turned out pretty much as expected, and i just felt incredibly weird and disorientated throughout the whole day. something just didn't feel right, and it didn't help that my closer friends were all separated. at least i'm relieved that there was moses, pek sia and karen in the same og...
somehow i never felt like this before... many people have told me of the tough transition from primary school to secondary school but thankfully i never suffered from it. maybe that was cos there were things that happened near the end of p6 that i wanted to put behind so i didn't mind starting over new among total strangers in an unfamiliar territory. then other people talked bout struggling from sec 2 to sec 3 but again it felt alright, and again that might be because i was looking forward to leaving the horrible class atmosphere and there were many familiar faces.
this time it's different though... after how everything had turned out, i'm more than contented to continue the way things are. satisfied with my present (now past though) condition. there was little if any incentive to move forward, but we just had to. as much as i wanna improve myself as a person, i don't want to change the essence of who i am and sometimes i get afraid just that might happen.
as i told some of my friends there, things change, priorities change and impressions change.
but i'd end on a brighter note. i'm thinking a lot now (as i almost always do too much) but i think i'd get it sorted out eventually. so until then i'd have to try my best to enjoy myself at the orientation. no point being all moody and failing to move on. after all, it's part of life and i just have to take it as it is.
as much as i thought today's activities were ho-hum and the plans for the week leaves much to be desired i'd try my best to have fun. the OLs are generally (sorry to offend them, but...) but one was pretty humourous. and classmates look intesting even though i might find it tough settling in initially.
regardless of how things turn out i'd be there for 3 months so no point wasting them. i'm gonna try learning the dance as lead-footed as i am, i'm gonna try take part in most of the activities as long as they're not overboard and i'm gonna try learn more bout new friends. but all that while trying to keep contact with old ones...
not particularly looking forward to tomorrow, but since i have to go through it anyway let's get over and done with it. i'm looking forward to when lessons start and hopefully things will go a li'l better from then on. and one thing i like bout jc life is the extra freedom given. i've always believed that there is no need for strict rules as long as everybody is responsible enough to know when not to do certain things... well, that may be just a false impression, but no point speculating so much...
somehow i never felt like this before... many people have told me of the tough transition from primary school to secondary school but thankfully i never suffered from it. maybe that was cos there were things that happened near the end of p6 that i wanted to put behind so i didn't mind starting over new among total strangers in an unfamiliar territory. then other people talked bout struggling from sec 2 to sec 3 but again it felt alright, and again that might be because i was looking forward to leaving the horrible class atmosphere and there were many familiar faces.
this time it's different though... after how everything had turned out, i'm more than contented to continue the way things are. satisfied with my present (now past though) condition. there was little if any incentive to move forward, but we just had to. as much as i wanna improve myself as a person, i don't want to change the essence of who i am and sometimes i get afraid just that might happen.
as i told some of my friends there, things change, priorities change and impressions change.
but i'd end on a brighter note. i'm thinking a lot now (as i almost always do too much) but i think i'd get it sorted out eventually. so until then i'd have to try my best to enjoy myself at the orientation. no point being all moody and failing to move on. after all, it's part of life and i just have to take it as it is.
as much as i thought today's activities were ho-hum and the plans for the week leaves much to be desired i'd try my best to have fun. the OLs are generally
regardless of how things turn out i'd be there for 3 months so no point wasting them. i'm gonna try learning the dance as lead-footed as i am, i'm gonna try take part in most of the activities as long as they're not overboard and i'm gonna try learn more bout new friends. but all that while trying to keep contact with old ones...
not particularly looking forward to tomorrow, but since i have to go through it anyway let's get over and done with it. i'm looking forward to when lessons start and hopefully things will go a li'l better from then on. and one thing i like bout jc life is the extra freedom given. i've always believed that there is no need for strict rules as long as everybody is responsible enough to know when not to do certain things... well, that may be just a false impression, but no point speculating so much...
