Saturday, December 04, 2004
Dream
had a pleasant dream last night... that makes it the second time where i felt this overwhelming bliss in a dream. how i wish it was like real life. dreams fascinate me... they are weird, illogical, surreal yet so real as you can almost vouch you were there. somehow dreams (at least my dreams) are always so quiet but yet words are spoken. faces and people always look so fuzzy and cannot be made out but somehow, you know who everyone is... and as twisted as they are, they always reflect whatever you are thinking. how i wish those dreams were for real...
i still cannot forget that feeling. it's... nice... it's warm... the feeling of just lying down and not doing anything, knowing that everything is fine and THE ONE is beside you. there's no need for words cos i just know that she is there... maybe u call that security but i dun know...
weird... but always after that reality will try to remind you where you are, and i did get a li'l irritated, maybe even angry at someone just trying to be funny online... again i get reminded of the priority thing... it seems like we're really on different tracks and after the chalet we'd prob not see each other ever again except when we get our results back in march... so i've been 'rotting' at home these few days, a li'l afraid to try do anything. but at least we'd have the chalet next week and i'd be going overseas the week after next so i don't give myself too much time to think. but it'd progressing a li'l too fast... i haven't even completed a game at all and i've hoped to complete at least 3 or 4 this holiday and all is gonna end soon... soon it'd be the next chapter of our lives... just what will be beyond that door i wonder...
i still cannot forget that feeling. it's... nice... it's warm... the feeling of just lying down and not doing anything, knowing that everything is fine and THE ONE is beside you. there's no need for words cos i just know that she is there... maybe u call that security but i dun know...
weird... but always after that reality will try to remind you where you are, and i did get a li'l irritated, maybe even angry at someone just trying to be funny online... again i get reminded of the priority thing... it seems like we're really on different tracks and after the chalet we'd prob not see each other ever again except when we get our results back in march... so i've been 'rotting' at home these few days, a li'l afraid to try do anything. but at least we'd have the chalet next week and i'd be going overseas the week after next so i don't give myself too much time to think. but it'd progressing a li'l too fast... i haven't even completed a game at all and i've hoped to complete at least 3 or 4 this holiday and all is gonna end soon... soon it'd be the next chapter of our lives... just what will be beyond that door i wonder...
