Monday, November 22, 2004
Apathetic People
again i want to find someone to blame, but when i think bout it i guess i'm at fault too. these things happen when pple are in a group, i guess. at least chalet's coming and so there's no more need to do these 'dirty work' for the next few days. i'm kinda angry at others, but thou shall not let that affect my enjoyment of the holidays. now i'm just waiting for deli to get my games and i'd be ready to go.
sometimes i'm wondering if i'm doing the right thing, whether i'm trying way to hard than i need to and if all this efforts are gonna pay off. it seems as if others are just waiting for things to happen, thinking that things will turn out fine. i have no qualms taking the initiative this time but at least they should show some response, shouldn't there. do they actually want this? reminds me so much of aaron's attitude. there are times when i really wanted to let go at him when he displays that apathy of his and makes u wonder what u're trying so hard for. so i never did it in the end, and maybe that's how everything is gonna turn out again.
my plea to those people: pls do something or just tell me that u're fine with things the way they are! i'm getting sick of this
sometimes i'm wondering if i'm doing the right thing, whether i'm trying way to hard than i need to and if all this efforts are gonna pay off. it seems as if others are just waiting for things to happen, thinking that things will turn out fine. i have no qualms taking the initiative this time but at least they should show some response, shouldn't there. do they actually want this? reminds me so much of aaron's attitude. there are times when i really wanted to let go at him when he displays that apathy of his and makes u wonder what u're trying so hard for. so i never did it in the end, and maybe that's how everything is gonna turn out again.
my plea to those people: pls do something or just tell me that u're fine with things the way they are! i'm getting sick of this
