Sunday, November 21, 2004
Actions speak louder than words, but not nearly as often
Seems like it's not so long after all and i'm back here again. to think the euphoria of the completion of the o levels ended so quickly. just the next day i was a li'l disappointed with the attitudes of some people but i dun wanna elaborate on that. they have their own priorities and i'm in no position to say that they're wrong. at least there's still a couple of them who seem to understand, and i truly appreciate them for that.
i'm here more to complain bout myself, again. i always say i'm trying but ultimately i still lack the guts to do so many things. sometimes i dream bout all the gd things than can happen but i don't do anything bout them. if only i was more proactive, maybe i won't be this pessimist who crushes whatever hopes and dreams he have. but then again, that's my life. full of maybes and should bes.
and once again i've let another opportunity slide by. just one more hint that i'd succeed and i'd do it, i tell myself, but cues after cues later i'm still stuck at the same position.
i'd start anew in jc, i tell myself, but that's what i said after primary school as well and just look at the state i'm in today: no better than before. i keep telling myself, and even others, that nothing will change if i/you don't do anything. still, something's holding me back. opportunities come your way but they don't fall right on your lap. once again, i'm telling myself to take action. so what if it fails... i'd be sad for a few days, angry at others or disappointed but at least i can tell myself that i've did everything i can. i've tried my best and i have no regrets as a particular someone will say. this is the spirit i wanna possess...
i'm here more to complain bout myself, again. i always say i'm trying but ultimately i still lack the guts to do so many things. sometimes i dream bout all the gd things than can happen but i don't do anything bout them. if only i was more proactive, maybe i won't be this pessimist who crushes whatever hopes and dreams he have. but then again, that's my life. full of maybes and should bes.
and once again i've let another opportunity slide by. just one more hint that i'd succeed and i'd do it, i tell myself, but cues after cues later i'm still stuck at the same position.
i'd start anew in jc, i tell myself, but that's what i said after primary school as well and just look at the state i'm in today: no better than before. i keep telling myself, and even others, that nothing will change if i/you don't do anything. still, something's holding me back. opportunities come your way but they don't fall right on your lap. once again, i'm telling myself to take action. so what if it fails... i'd be sad for a few days, angry at others or disappointed but at least i can tell myself that i've did everything i can. i've tried my best and i have no regrets as a particular someone will say. this is the spirit i wanna possess...
