Saturday, October 09, 2004
My love for yangqin
i dreamt of my yangqin pals today... not exactly dreamt since it was actually during a short nap and i was only half-asleep, but... that makes it the second time in the past two weeks. how weird it is that this only happened four years after we parted. i feel really sad thinking bout it, thinking bout how it turned out, but i really miss them. miss those times where we'd be cooped together for so long after school talking while we practice... it took me two yrs be4 my hatred for the chinese orchestra died down and now, four years before i remembered my friends there... only now did i realise that i truly enjoyed playing the yangqin. i really should have joined them at the cc after primary sch, but then...
oh the memories... william, alvin and co. we definitely enjoyed playing the yangqin, and we definitely enjoyed music. we do complain big time bout the amount of practice but never once did skipping it came to our minds. now, i hate myself for having quit. i still stand by my decision cos the emphasis on winning was so much so that it was no longer bout playing it cos we liked it, but i can't believed that i hated it for two yrs.
i toyed with the idea of joining zhss's chinese orchestra midway through sec 3, but decided against it cos i'm too rusty and i'm afraid the same thing will happen again. and that was probably the last chance i'm ever gonna touch a yangqin. or a chinese drum. or a mu yu. or the cymbals... i wanna blame someone for that, but can't find anyone other than myself.
the sad thing is i've lost touch with all of them after i moved to woodlands. some day i hope that i'd see some of them out on the streets or whatever and sit down to chat about those pleasant and not-so-pleasant memories. we were together from primary 2, and i think we spent more time in the yangqin and ruan rooms than the classrooms. those days i felt so cooped up, but i cannot deny that i enjoyed my time as a chinese orchestra member. we sacrificed a lot for it (i still remember missing out on the sports day in primary 6 because of it when i was so confident i'd get a medal in the high jump... we spent so much time practising, and i never got to enjoy a prize-giving ceremony cos we're performing), but we did gain a lot too. i never knew i was a musical person until then, and the trip to australia was probably one of my best memories. being overseas with those bunch of friends were just so great...
i'm not phrasing my things well, but i'm juz too choked with emotions nowadays. a few yrs down the road i'd be thinking bout what had happened in zhonghua. will it be one of regret or one of many sweet memories? will we be able to stay in contact and get together someday?
and be4 i end off, i'd like to reiterate how much i loved being part of the chinese orchestra. WE WERE ONE OF THE BEST IN SINGAPORE THEN. I LOVE YANGQIN (AND TO A LESSER EXTENT, THE DRUMS AND RUAN). I LOVE ALL MY PREVIOUS CHINESE ORCHESTRA MATES!
I wanna shout them out loud, but we dun have those open fields here in singapore. and extra thanks again to william and alvin for being my best mates then. we argued, we (almost) fought (i can't believe i actually almost came to blows with a person) but i'd almost remember u two as my best mates. ever.
oh the memories... william, alvin and co. we definitely enjoyed playing the yangqin, and we definitely enjoyed music. we do complain big time bout the amount of practice but never once did skipping it came to our minds. now, i hate myself for having quit. i still stand by my decision cos the emphasis on winning was so much so that it was no longer bout playing it cos we liked it, but i can't believed that i hated it for two yrs.
i toyed with the idea of joining zhss's chinese orchestra midway through sec 3, but decided against it cos i'm too rusty and i'm afraid the same thing will happen again. and that was probably the last chance i'm ever gonna touch a yangqin. or a chinese drum. or a mu yu. or the cymbals... i wanna blame someone for that, but can't find anyone other than myself.
the sad thing is i've lost touch with all of them after i moved to woodlands. some day i hope that i'd see some of them out on the streets or whatever and sit down to chat about those pleasant and not-so-pleasant memories. we were together from primary 2, and i think we spent more time in the yangqin and ruan rooms than the classrooms. those days i felt so cooped up, but i cannot deny that i enjoyed my time as a chinese orchestra member. we sacrificed a lot for it (i still remember missing out on the sports day in primary 6 because of it when i was so confident i'd get a medal in the high jump... we spent so much time practising, and i never got to enjoy a prize-giving ceremony cos we're performing), but we did gain a lot too. i never knew i was a musical person until then, and the trip to australia was probably one of my best memories. being overseas with those bunch of friends were just so great...
i'm not phrasing my things well, but i'm juz too choked with emotions nowadays. a few yrs down the road i'd be thinking bout what had happened in zhonghua. will it be one of regret or one of many sweet memories? will we be able to stay in contact and get together someday?
and be4 i end off, i'd like to reiterate how much i loved being part of the chinese orchestra. WE WERE ONE OF THE BEST IN SINGAPORE THEN. I LOVE YANGQIN (AND TO A LESSER EXTENT, THE DRUMS AND RUAN). I LOVE ALL MY PREVIOUS CHINESE ORCHESTRA MATES!
I wanna shout them out loud, but we dun have those open fields here in singapore. and extra thanks again to william and alvin for being my best mates then. we argued, we (almost) fought (i can't believe i actually almost came to blows with a person) but i'd almost remember u two as my best mates. ever.
