The simpler life...

really dunno wat to blog, juz lyk how it's been 4 the past week or so (make that almost everyday), but juz need a place to try express my feelings. kinda have a lots of undescribable feelings in me nowadays, and really dunno how to react... (adolescence, eh?) sure, i always have this empty feeling inside me from time to time, where i juz look back at myself and wonder y i'm still going bout life blindly but this time there's sth else... it's more than the emptiness... it's lyk trying to reach out 4 sth u really want but that thing is juz so elusive, always that inch away. after much hard work squeezing that inch out of yourself you find urself yet another inch away... sigh...

kinda troubling, really i've been waiting one day for myself to juz stop thinking while i sleep (eternal sleep or watever, juz make me not feel it)... or maybe tell me a day in advance so i can go do watever i've always wanted to do but have been afraid to. it's been bout six mnths since i'd wished 4 tt, but i dun see it happening anytime soon either...

well, chinese o level oral tml... zhe ji tian wo i zhi zai ban shang nu li jiang hua wen... make that hua yu (y's terence so fickle bout it?) but it juz feels so unnatural... juz hope i'd be able to get over and done with it. wo shi hua ren, dang ran neng shuo biao zun he zhen que de hua wen/yu

and finally doing some hw at home is a gd thing, though the amount i've spent on latte (and more on big macs and vanilla cokes and ice cream cones when i start studying 4 prelims and o's) have really pegged me back. Also, given that i now return home so frickin' late, all the gaming have come to a standstill... i still have at least 15 more hours to clock be4 i can complete golden sun again (y did i ever delete that save file... stupid me..) so i can finally game on the mrt again... long blog today, so that's all 4 now. juz enjoy everything until ur own nirvana comes... or armagadon watever will come earlier